A fat experience

So, for anyone who is fat, you know how hard it is to shop for cute clothes.well last night I had to find a dress for graduation. I tried on a dress that I like and I looked hugely preggo. I tried another one and it looked like a tent. Finely I found one. I grabbed a size 16 like I was wearing but it didn't fit. I grabbed a 18 and still no luck. 20 ... Nope. Finally a 22 fit great. WOW. I am a fatass.


Not for long :)

Well I bought it and wore my tent proudly LOL and I walked across stage and got by diploma. I'm a fat, recent collge graduate Wooohooo.

On the positive side, I have not had a soda since Tuesday night!! I hope I can keep that up. I decreased my calories each day by over 1000 just by drinking water only.

Now my nubby and I are on our way to the casinos to celebrate my graduation. Hopefully I'll strike it rich!



-- Post From My iPhone

Can you die from food withdrawal???

Wow. My first day not snacking all day long and I seriously believe I'm going to die. Now, I know I won't die, but this is hard.

I have drank so much water that I feel like I'm floating to and from the bathroom LOL.

My lunch consisted of a baked potatoe with fat free cheese, just a smidge of butter and a couple bacon bits. Not bad. I also had some fruit, so that was a nice way to top it off. I guess my lunch was around 400 Calories, so I'm definitely impressed since my previous lunch would probably be closer to 1000 or 1300 Calories. ;)

So, here I am. Taking a break at work, typing on here for a few minutes to vent my frustration about feeling like I am starving even though I'm not.

I have decided NOT to buy a scale. I will continue doing my weekly weigh in at work otherwise I will obsess over my weight and that definitely won't help.

Tonight I'm going to take some pictures so I have some before and afters. Hopefully this will be my motivation. Other than a few headshot pics for facebook, I haven't taken any pictures of myself in YEARS!!! I guess we will see how that works out.

Anyways, I'm up to 4 Followers! Woo! :D Thanks for your support!

Breaks over. Time to get back to work!

Day 1

Today is my first day of my diet.

Luckily, at work, we are doing a Fitness type program, so as part of that I had to weigh in.

Oh.My.God.

I weighed a jaw-dropping 251lbs.

I weighed 145lbs when I met my husband.

I weighed 190lbs when I had my first daughter.

I weighed 212lbs when I had my second daughter.

So, officially I weigh more today than I did when I was 9 months pregnant.

WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?

Anyways, this is it for me. I can't live this way anymore. So, for breakfast, I had a fruit & walnut salad from McDonalds. This is a HUGE change because I would normally have a few donuts and then snick snack all day. Not anymore!

So, let's see what I can do. I want to lose 30lbs by the end of the summer.

That is completely doable.

Wish me luck!

My Introduction

I'm a fat mom.

I wasn't always fat. I used to be hot. Thin legs, sexy curves. You know the type.

Now I'm fat.

I guess my first blog should be about who I am. A fat mom isn't what defines me. My family defines me. Fat mom is just a description of who I have become over the past 9 years. So, I guess I need to tell you what happened 9 years ago.

9 years ago, I met my love. I met my future husband. I met my best friend. Will was fabulous. He loved me, but I'm sure he loved my figure too. What he didn't know is that happiness leads to fatness I suppose. We dated for 1 1/2 years before he proposed. I remember that day like it just happened. He got down on one knee in our living room and popped the question. I'm sure at that time, he thought I would always be his loving, fit, partner. Instead, I almost immediatly became fat.

When I met him, I was a size 4. When he proposed, I was a size 8. When we got married, I was a size 14. Now a 20. Do you see the trend?

Well, not anymore. I hope I can follow through this time and manage to not lose it. I hope I can manage to get in shape. I need it for me. I need it for my girls. I need it for my life to become that fairytale story so I can live happily ever after. I NEED THIS!

So, where do I start? I don't know.

I have a bike, that I spent $300 for, but it is just sitting in my bedroom, holding my clothes. I guess that would be a start.

Hmmm.... I just don't know!

But no matter what... here I GO!