So where did I leave off?

I'm fat.

But.... not for very long.

After my first round of blogging, I got discouraged. Instead of losing weight, I was gaining it, and rapidly. Anyways, I decided that I needed to stop for a few months and regain my composure and relearn my motivation. Then I stopped, took a look in the mirror fresh out of the shower. I wiped the steam away from the mirror and realized that my figure wasn't ruined by the foggy glass, but rather but my lifestyle over the past 10 years.

I ruined me.

I am taking charge of my life. I am taking charge of my body and my soul. So here is my plan:

- I hate diets. Instead of dieting, I'm just watching my food intake. Instead of a huge chocolate bar, I'm eating a handful of pretzles. Instead of a slice of cake, I'm eating an apple. It's working. Well.

- I have been needing time to myself for years. Now I have it. We joined a gym. Now, every night, with my Ipod in tow, I work out. I strap down the sagging, fleshy things that once resembled boobs with two bras, squeeze into my workout pants and drive to my new second home. Xertion fitness. It rocks! I think I might take some pictures of it tonight :) I love my gym!!!

- I'm staying away from my scale. My biggest demotivator was the flashing numbers on the scale. Every morning I would hop on, only to be depressed by the increasing numbers. Now, I only weigh one time per week. I have something to look forward to right now.

Last week was 246.4. I'll be down to 200 soon. I'm ready to tell Lane Bryant goodbye and go back into the Buckle to buy some jeans!!! Wish me luck!